Deuces.

• My Life.
• Music.
• FOOD.
• close high school friends.

My grades are the worst this semester, and it will probably go to a 2.6. I feel like I’m letting my emotions take the best of me this semester. My anger towards some roommates, the drama that happened in my sorority, the fact that I feel left out…

It really felt so bad this semester that I have been feeling down. I know telling my parents how I would feel about it would think that I’m weak because I had my emotions taken over me during this semester. All I know is that I want to do better this coming summer and other semesters. 

I want to really talk to a friend about my feelings. So far, Maurice has been telling me that I shouldn’t focus on my emotions and focus on what’s important, and never let you get you down. I know a lot of you and my friends would say the same thing as well. I feel emotionally drained and with how much of hard work I’ve tried, I felt it’s not enough. 

I’ve given up and just want to clear my head and start a new. I am really trying, but it’s not that close to “trying hard enough.” The limit that I have is false, and I know my unlimited possibilities can be endless and true. My full potential and motivation has not come back, but knowing that I had a hard slap in the face, that mark will remaining burning.

I’ve realized I haven’t been close to my religion, Catholicism. I know my parents are powerful and loyal with God. They keep reminding me to pray all the time, but I always forget. I really want to get my faith back as well, and I need to seriously get back. 

I want my old self back. That hard determined girl, that can just rely on herself to do the impossible. I was like that in middle school. I worked hard, got straight A’s. Highschool was reality, and made A’s and B’s and a few C’s, which is average. I got involved with community service inorder for me to add in my resume and have some experience.

I’ve been down in the dumps this week, and just can’t wait for the freedom that will happen this weekend, and clear my mind of the stress and unnecessary emotions. 

Whoever is reading this, hope you all understand, and I’m really praying and trying hard to study for my last final. This last final is going to be somewhat hard, but I believe I can do it.